In the time spent with pets, each one integrates into our lives in a unique way and becomes an irreplaceable presence. Just like my Siam cat, Gozi. Its arrival has added a vivid and colorful touch to my life, bringing a complex mix of endless joy and annoyance.
From the very beginning, I had a deep yearning for an extremely clingy kitten. Watching other people’s cats affectionately approaching for a pat, that desire in my heart grew stronger and stronger. So, before deciding to keep a cat, I looked up the personality traits of various cats online and also explored the breeding experiences of different breeds of cats on Zhihu. When I learned that Siam cats have a dog – like personality, are very clingy, and have a bit of a grown – up look, I decided on it. I happily welcomed Gozi’s arrival and gave it this special name because it was like a loyal little dog in my heart. At that time, there were already two dogs in my family, a Golden Retriever and a Papillon. Now, I often laughingly tell others that I have “three dogs” in my family.
When Gozi first arrived at the new home, I was full of expectations for it. However, after getting along with it, I found that its personality was really quite complex. Its clinginess was manifested in a very peculiar way. When it comes to its clinginess, it doesn’t like to be held in my arms. When it’s in a good mood, it can barely tolerate it; but if it’s in a bad mood, it will immediately turn around and bite me. Every time I want to pet it, I have to repeat in my heart: “Don’t bite me, don’t bite me.” This feeling is like gambling. If I win, it’s in a good mood, and the experience of “cat – cuddling” at that moment is like being in heaven. Its soft fur slides through my fingertips, and its warm little body nestles against me. But if I lose, when it’s in a bad mood, it will hold my hand and bite and chew, and its hind legs will kick hard. The scene is really a bit “terrible”.
However, its clinginess is also vividly manifested in other aspects. Wherever I go, it will closely follow me, just like my little tail. Every night before going to bed, it will surely jump onto my bed and lie on me, making a snoring sound, as if telling me about its day. The warm scene makes me feel extremely happy. But after a while, it will suddenly get up and leave, leaving me alone, as if the intimacy just now was just an illusion. It really is “after having a good time, it turns its back on you”.
This morning, it showed its unique little temper again. It wanted to go out of the bedroom and was howling at the door (my Siam cat doesn’t meow, and its cry is quite unique). At that time, I was so sleepy that I really didn’t have the energy to pay attention to it, so I continued to sleep. Unexpectedly, when it saw that I didn’t get up, it directly jumped to my side and bit my hand. Then it stared at me, with an expression as if it was saying: “Little guy, I told you to open the door. Are you forcing me to bite you? Are you forcing me to be rough?” Looking at its appearance, I was really angry and funny at the same time. This little guy really has its own temper, just like a little grown – up.
This complex interweaving of emotions makes me love and be helpless towards it. Although its behavior sometimes bothers me, I still love it deeply. Even at certain moments, when it brings me sweet company, I especially want to dote on it alone and give it all my love. I also know that in the process of getting along with it, this kind of contradiction and entanglement may continue to play out, but I believe that it is precisely these complex emotions that form the unique bond between me and Gozi. In the future days, I look forward to creating more memories with it. Whether it’s laughter or tears, they will all become the most precious wealth in our lives.
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